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(JK's not in the above picture.)

The 5 of us haven't been hanging out together for quite sometime already. Although I see F every week for tuition, HJ &JK for church and JS in college.
More than 11 years, and still counting.
Although we don't really tell every single thing to one another, I don't have to hide my true self from them &that's the whole point.
I'm certain that our friendship will last, till eternity I hope.

A zillion apologies to Ms Liu.
I know I've let her down terribly, when I received my Chemistry results early this morning.
Numbed with overwhelming disappointment, I couldn't bring myself to face her. I looked at her direction &tears started to well up but I held back. To me, she's a really good teacher and friend. When I fell really sick and was running a high fever a few weeks back, she texted me to ask if I was alright.
Furthermore, since we both hit it off quite well, I feel even worse.
I promise myself that I will work really hard during these June holidays &make improvement for Chemistry. I want her to be proud of me.

Yes, I want a pup/dog. Real badly.
"Dogs are Man's best friend."

I did not choose this time to blog about everything.
It's just that, everything has been bottling up inside of me for quite sometime &I'm having mixed feelings right now.

Sad.
Disappointed.
Heartbroken.
Angry.
Drained out.

I wanna let you know.
That I will only be unhappy because of YOU.
Just you, and you alone.

Nothing else can make me feel so upset and bitter, not even my fucked up results.
That particular day, I told you exactly how I felt.
And that was the FIRST time ever in my 17+ years that I've done such a thing to a guy.
Indeed, it took me alot of courage before I could manage it.

"Standing by and waiting at your back door, all this time, how could you not know?"

I really wanna give you a call now, to talk about everything under the sun.
I miz talking to you about random stupid stuff.
Your texts never fail to light up my face with a foolish grin all the time : )
Little did I know that it was all over.

Everyday, I wake up and take a look at my phone, wishing that your name would appear.
But each time, my hopes come crashing down again and again.
I'm getting tired of waiting, but no I won't give up just yet. This is how much I believe in you, that someday you would turn back and look at me.

"Every single hour of every single day,
I miss you more and more.
Don’t know what to say,
I know I closed the door.
You’re gone and on your way,
but now I need you, I need you…"


"Wanna take it back to the day when we first met.
If I could, I'd start all over again.
Our love is my regret."


"Should have known then, what I know now,
Dying every second that you’re not around.
Should have been there, when you needed me,
Now I’m by myself, on my bended knees.
Should have loved you, while I had the chance to,
Couldn’t realize that you were the truth.
Should have shown you, what you meant to me,
Baby now I see, that you were my queen king."

-Banky


Would you please give me another chance, to make things right?
If not, I wouldn't have gone through so much trouble just to find out more about you.

"Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks,
I will be right here waiting for you."