Everything was done, so you would come.
Yours Truly.
Monday, June 28, 2010, 5:13 PM
One step, one day.
Amazing uh?
There are so many more that I wanna upload here, but due to time constraint I can't.
But these are enough to express everything that I want to say below.
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Dear journal,There are so many more that I wanna upload here, but due to time constraint I can't.
But these are enough to express everything that I want to say below.
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You know what?
For the past 2-3 weeks or so, I've been feeling different. Somehow, somewhat. No, not in a bad way. I feel that I've found myself again, my real self. Like how I really was in upper sec.
I don't know if it's because all the pain has numbed me, or whatsoever. I don't wish to see everything in a bad light anymore. I don't care what others think of me, because I know for sure that I ain't guilty of anything &I've a clear conscience.
People can judge me for all I care, because they don't know me and they definitely don't understand me at all. No, I won't hate them and I'm not trying to be a hypocrite here. Afterall, a friend is obviously better than an enemy.
I'm contented that my girls have always been there for me. Plus the rest of my friends who have always been my strong pillars of support in school. Just a simple smile when walking past, and I know that it's really nice to have a friend like them : )
Because at least they bother to, and they care.
Happy is definitely an understatement. To describe how I feel after finding myself back once again. Yes, I enjoy being happy everyday. C'mon, who doesn't yeah? But what makes me even happier is that my friends are there to share the joy with me.
When anyone of them is feeling down, I'll always try my best to improve their mood a lil'. I want everyone around me to be happy too : )
So I guess that I've learnt to take things in my stride and live to the fullest every, single, day. Running away from my problems by drowning in alcohol wouldn't help, at all. It would only numb me for awhile, and then the pain will return twice as much. Not including the hangovers.
I really wanna know how you're doing right now. Is everything in your life going smoothly for you? I know that as time passes by, even if I still think and care about you, you may not reciprocate. I've never regretted doing all those for you.
Because feelings fade, and people change.
Whatever it is, I'll not kick you outta my life. You were once part of it, and you'll always be. A piece of my memories : ) I'm gonna leave out all the bad experiences, and what's left would only be the most awesome of all.