Everything was done, so you would come.
Yours Truly.
Saturday, May 22, 2010, 12:30 AM
Makes me wonder.
This entire post is dedicated to you so you should be honoured. : )I've so much to say but I don't wanna put all the details down here so hope you'll be smart enough to tell yeah. I'd very much wanted to tweet about everything but I don't think you're worth me spamming my friends' timeline.
Sometimes although I don't wanna hear certain things, others would unknowingly tell me about it. I keep telling myself that I won't bother about your life happenings anymore but still...I don't know why there's that particular urge in me that keeps wanting to know more instead.
It's hurting me every single moment but I still wanna know. Why?
Because I care.
Yes, I've been trying my very best to put down everything and let it go. But do you know how hard it is for me, especially when I'm such an emotional person? &You jolly well know that. Took me more than 2 years to forget about someone and I thought you would be so much easier after all that I've went through in the past. But apparently, that doesn't seem to be the case uh.
Those 3 words that I said to you last night, I was serious about it. No doubt I sounded harsh, but I wanted to make it rather obvious to you. To let you realize that whatever you were saying hurt me real bad. Unfortunately, you didn't get it. I already had trouble finding my notes, yet you still had to add fuel to the fire. You're the last person that I want to make fun of me.
When I found out about that whole damn thing, I laughed out loud. Real loudly till I couldn't control myself. But I realized that the more I laughed, the more painful it got on the inside.
I was actually crying.
But obviously I had to make it sound as if it was something funny. I believed every single word you told me last time. "You're not ready for this kinda thing right now...And both of us have our priorities now." Those words came right from you. At least you sounded sincere enough to make me believe in you. But what's happened now? You yourself know it best.
You broke my trust in you once. I forgave you. And now. . . . . . .
Tell me please, if I should trust you once again.
That day I was really happy because I thought I was finally over you and I'd succeeded. I could talk to you face to face without feeling awkward at all. But it seems like I was absolutely wrong after last night.
Why did I feel that tinge of heartbreak when I found out about it? I don't understand.
Honestly, I'll feel genuinely happy for you if the girl you like has a good character/good-looking.
Perhaps love is blind so I guess that's the reason for your choice. I know I've no right to judge or criticise that's why I didn't tell you anything. I just don't want you to get hurt in the end.