Everything was done, so you would come.
Yours Truly.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010, 9:47 PM
Miscommunication.
I just found out everything today.
Got a huge shock after that phone call &I was fking distracted for the whole day. Until now.
Why didn't you let me know in the first place?
Why did you keep it from me?
And the worst damn thing was,
YOU MISUNDERSTOOD ME ALL ALONG.
RIGHT FROM THE VERY START.
Everything was about you. And only you. But I think you just didn't realise it.
I already told you time and again that it wasn't true at all. But you just carried on blabbering nonsense. Obviously, I couldn't do anything more. I just felt, disappointed.
I thought you would be able to tell.
From my words and actions.
But it seemed that the misunderstanding between us just grew stronger and greater.
I was fine and happy before you came into my life.
I felt happier AFTER you entered into my life.
But. . .. . . . ..
my feelings went downward spiral when you walked out of my life.
So it's definitely not what you think it is.
I've always wanted to hear the truth right from your own mouth.
Yet I had to keep guessing, from day one until today.
I had my own suspicions a couple of times but I didn't dare to confirm.
I waited.
And waited.
And waited.
To be honest, I'm still waiting.
Up till this second, I'm still waiting.
But will all this waiting be futile?
You never know how much it hurt inside me whenever we talked about that issue.
Do you?
Seeing how happy you were, I just had no choice but to give you my blessings.
I thought it was only right to do that.
I don't know if you will be seeing this, maybe you think that I ain't referring to you.
Perhaps everything was my fault. I realised it all too late.
Perhaps you've already moved on. &The only thing that I can do now is to take all this shit upon myself.
If you're happy in this current state, then I guess I don't mind getting hurt once again.
But tell me.
I want to hear those words from you.
Got a huge shock after that phone call &I was fking distracted for the whole day. Until now.
Why didn't you let me know in the first place?
Why did you keep it from me?
And the worst damn thing was,
YOU MISUNDERSTOOD ME ALL ALONG.
RIGHT FROM THE VERY START.
Everything was about you. And only you. But I think you just didn't realise it.
I already told you time and again that it wasn't true at all. But you just carried on blabbering nonsense. Obviously, I couldn't do anything more. I just felt, disappointed.
I thought you would be able to tell.
From my words and actions.
But it seemed that the misunderstanding between us just grew stronger and greater.
I was fine and happy before you came into my life.
I felt happier AFTER you entered into my life.
But. . .. . . . ..
my feelings went downward spiral when you walked out of my life.
So it's definitely not what you think it is.
I've always wanted to hear the truth right from your own mouth.
Yet I had to keep guessing, from day one until today.
I had my own suspicions a couple of times but I didn't dare to confirm.
I waited.
And waited.
And waited.
To be honest, I'm still waiting.
Up till this second, I'm still waiting.
But will all this waiting be futile?
You never know how much it hurt inside me whenever we talked about that issue.
Do you?
Seeing how happy you were, I just had no choice but to give you my blessings.
I thought it was only right to do that.
I don't know if you will be seeing this, maybe you think that I ain't referring to you.
Perhaps everything was my fault. I realised it all too late.
Perhaps you've already moved on. &The only thing that I can do now is to take all this shit upon myself.
If you're happy in this current state, then I guess I don't mind getting hurt once again.
But tell me.
I want to hear those words from you.