Everything was done, so you would come.
Yours Truly.
Sunday, February 7, 2010, 3:17 PM
On repeat mode.
Current status: Infer from the picture above.
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Everything's on repeat mode, again.
Whatever that happened 2 and a half years ago is occurring now.
As I sit here blogging infront of my lappy, the strong wind blows right across my face. I always love this kinda cool afternoon feeling. But with tears running down my cheeks and my eyes all puffed up and swollen, how do I expect myself to focus on my work?
Home alone again and Daddy just called. Had to control and make myself sound as if everything's alright over the phone. I can't let anyone else see my weak&fragile side of me anymore, because it hurts me to see them upset too. I'm deeply sorry.
I reckon it will take a long time for my wound to heal again this time. The person who hurt me would be the only person who can help me recover from this emotional crisis. But I doubt that person will ever know or notice. Gave a whole load of advice to Anthony that night and I was glad that he felt much better and reassured.
Then I thought to myself,
"What about my own issues?"
Am I destined to let others bring my emotions onto a rollercoaster ride my whole life?
Not that I wanna be sad all the time, I was really happy twice.
As I thought all was well, everything came crashing down again.
Tomorrow's back to Monday, a brand new week. I honestly don't know how I'm gonna get through day by day. V'day & CNY is also just round the corner. But somehow, I don't look forward to it at all.
At !@#$%^ all.
Goodbye.
I shall continue wallowing in self-despair and put on a strong cheerful front in school as usual tomorrow.
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A letter from Joey on 1st Feb:
"Hi my dear Celeste Ho Ho Ho! I know you're going through a rough patch at this point of time. Please know I'm always here for you, physically, mentally and spiritually. Meanwhile, chin up okay, rationalize things. You're a very sensible person. I'm sure you will be fine, but don't keep things to yourself. Sometimes when you reach the end of the rope, just tie a knot and hang on. You sounded so down on the phone just now, I hope this letter would brighten up your gloomy day. Hehehe. Anyway, mushy corny stuff now. We've only known each other for less than a year. But it's really awesome. Knowing you, having you as a friend. I feel very blessed. Somehow, I feel that our friendship will go a long way. Thank you for being so caring all the time. I'll be there for you like how you were there for me. This year is going to be tough for you, don't ever lose hope. Always maintain the faith. "Brick walls are there for a reason, they are there to show us how much we want something." - Dr. Randy Pausch. Bear this in mind, please take care of yourself, cheer up. Love you buddy."
Hell awesome, ain't it?
Thanks alot.
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Thanks alot.
: )