Everything was done, so you would come.
Yours Truly.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009, 1:45 PM
Hurt, hopeless, helpless, hatred.
Why must it start ? Why ?My heart has been aching since Monday. Tears have been falling since Monday. I seriously don't know what to do. Just had a quarrel with Dad a few hours ago. I had always wanted to tell him that no matter what I do, I have my own reasons. To be more specific, difficulties. Yes, I'm thankful and grateful to him for being able to understand me. Thankful that he didn't reprimand me for my lousy results. He even tried his best to comfort me. But I know, that deep inside his heart, there is disappointment. I'm sincerely sorry to all that had high expectations of me. I've failed. Utterly failed. No matter how hard I try, I'm still a failure. Perhaps this is God's punishment to me, I've sinned against Him time and again. But why must He punish me this way!?!?!
I really need a shoulder to lean on now, a good confidante to confide in, a good listening ear to hear all my troubles.................................................but there is none.
I've nothing to lose now. Nothing. Zero. Zilch.