Everything was done, so you would come.
Yours Truly.
Thursday, April 3, 2008, 6:28 PM
Insecurity.
Felt so alone today.I held back my tears this afternoon and put on a false front. I walked right behind, with only my shadow accompanying me. I kept staring at the ground, wishing that the road would never end and I could just go on walking and walking and walking. Ever since you were gone, I'm afraid to trust anyone now.
I've to pretend to be a crazy and happy girl in front of Daddy back home, yet tears start falling behind closed doors at night. Nobody could share my sorrows with me now, unlike last time. Why must I feel this way?
Forcing myself to be happy, is all I can do. I looked out of the car window just now as the gigantic raindrops pelted down from the deep, overcast sky. Rainy days make me emotional. I r'mbred the days when I ran with all my might in the rain, trying to forget all my troubles. I hoped that every single raindrop would carry my troubles away. By the end of the long run, all my energy was used up and I collapsed onto the ground, just like that.
Feeling insecure, and all alone.
Friends, are supposedly my strong pillars of support in school. But up till now, I still don't get the meaning of 'true friends'. Will they always be there for me, or will they leave me alone someday?
The only time when I'm free from all these is when I'm sleeping. The same old thing repeats its cycle again when I go to school.
No matter what, I still love all my friends.
Love, Celeste.
P/S Apologies for the long rant above. I've nobody else to say this whole piece of junk to, except this online diary.